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(The Arthur's Seat)

Today marks the death of Jesus Christ on the cross where He showed his love and grace by sacrificing his life for us so that our sins have been forgiven.

I spent my Easter day, funny as it sounds, on top of a volcano (also known as "The Arthur's Seat") and that was the best experience ever. Venturing up that volcano was seriously a perilous journey but I guess the cold weather exhilarated me. Somehow, climbing up that volcano reminded me of my journey with God and the struggles I had as a Christian. Initially, the journey seemed like a rocky one but there was always this determination and courage in me that compelled me in wanting to get to the top and catch the splendid view. Finally, when I made it to the top and looked down from where I was standing, it wasn't the tiredness that made me breathless rather it was the breathtaking view that literally took my breath away. I swear my heart skipped a beat simply because I was so amazed at how beautiful the city of Edinburgh was.

I started to plug into my Ipod and quietly reflect on my life. I realized how God was so good to me: how his favour was upon me when I was offered an internship with a big firm that I really wanted to work in, how he helped me work out my summer holiday plans in spite of me being unable to travel around Europe because of Passport and Citizenship problems, how blessed I was to have my family coming up this easter to travel with me. He just answers my prayers in His time and so on. I remembered fasting a while back and anxiously asking God when he was going to answer my prayers. I guess all these encounters taught me a valuable lesson that of patience (waiting upon the Lord). So thank you God for being ever faithful and dying on the cross for my sins! There is indeed no greater love than this.

Another thing why I'm blogging, is to remind myself of the promise that I made with God at the Arthur's Seat :)

I should be mugging for my Land law seminar but I decided to take a break and jot down my thoughts about this awesome year. Honestly, I can't express how blessed and thankful that I've found such an awesome church in Manchester. Not only have I been blessed by an amazing cell group, but also I'm experiencing something so miraculously different here.

I haven't served in the worship ministry for a year because I struggled to settle down in a church when I first came to Manchester. When I first decided to go for my first worship practice session in King's Church, I felt that God was just revealing some new revelation in my life. It is a total different feeling playing the keyboard with a live gospel choir just next to you. The feeling is indescribable and I could feel God convicting my heart to just release all the fears of unfamiliarity due to not touching the keys in ages and let the spirit lead me. True enough, there I was immersed in the God's presence with beautiful voices resounding in the background.

Another thing I'm pretty thankful about is how God has been giving me peace throughout this entire year. I feel that 2012 is a year when I live out my passion in music and in dance. I no longer feel weary and weighed by the chains of the world, but somehow God has granted me some form of releasing and letting go of the past.

Recently, I just turned 21. Honestly, I wasn't hyped up about it, in fact, I was pretty distraught that I was becoming old which means more responsibilities, more things to worry about (graduating with a good degree), more expectations etc. I get so stressed up thinking about it actually. I remember getting so hysterical about birthday planning and all, but I must say it was all worth it. To have my closest friends around to celebrate with me (My Manchester friends, My MG friends, My JC friends), I began to just appreciate being 21 all over again. This whole birthday experience made me so thankful for certain friendships which have gone past a decade or even 5 years. It just amazes me how God's love through my friends has shown me how fortunate I was.

I think I could sit here all day long thinking of a list of things that God has blessed me throughout 21 years of my life- Family and Friends. My books are calling out my name to read them. Got to get back to reading Land Law ARGH haha (I need to be thankful for my education :P)

I'm all plugged in with Jon Mclaughlin's songs running on my music playlist and picking up my laptop at this moment to blog about my life. Right now, I'm in the heart of Stockholm. Stockholm is just splendid. I swear, besides wanting to go to the Caribbean so badly for my honeymoon, I think Stockholm is my second romantic getaway. It's so beautiful and rich of culture and history. Each time we travelled to a different part of Stockholm, I felt that I left a part of myself there. I was totally immersed in the beauty of Stockholm.



Although back in the corner of my mind is filled with the stress of completing all my essays and seminars, I felt that this trip was a good breather from the bombarding series of events of life. Work after Work. Gosh, second year is really not what I thought it would be but I guess I'm getting used to the daily motions of life and trying cope with school, dance, church and cellgroup. Definitely, this year has been busier but yet I feel a sense of accomplishment. I feel that I'm putting extra effort in my work and definitely less partying. I'm putting church and cell group as my priority and I believe God is working in my life in a mysterious sense. I'm in the Hipnotic dance team and we are performing at the end of this month. I'm just so overwhelmed by everything. I don't even know why I take up so much activities but I feel so blessed just doing all the things that I love in life. I keep telling myself that I only live my university life once and I should make the best out of it. I just wonder how I cope and I just secretly laugh about how I managed to do it. Maybe women are really made to multi-task, because that's what we do best haha

Reading week will be over soon, and before I know it, christmas is just peeking around the corner :) Can't wait, but secretly wishing time would pass slowly so I can slowly enjoy every moment of it.

So yes! I'm back in Manchester. I really felt that I had the greatest summer ever spent with loved ones at home. It was a fruitful summer I must say- did three internships, went to Phuket with my awesome friends, Taiwan with my mum, spend quality time with my family and friends and had the best food trail ever!

What I took home was that time does heal things. Despite all the awkwardness and distance, it feels great to have conversation with that someone and with the kind of familiarity.

Right now, I'm settling down nicely in my cosy crib in Manchester. Jamie and I have been cooking so much and I honestly love it because it reminds me of mummy's home-cook dishes :) School has started. I do love the modules I'm taking, but this year's workload is heavier I guess and more challenging. Oh wells! The only sucky thing is that I DON'T HAVE ANY INTERNET AT HOME! WHAT IS THIS! Sadly, the broadband service will only start on the 14th of October, so good luck to me. I feel like a leecher, leeching on my friend's internet haha

peace out!

I am finally home.

Every moment spent on the plane today was liberating and I could barely keep the excitement that was bursting out of me. I found myself just looking back at my first year of university and coming face to face with quiet, humble enlightenments that I discovered about myself and about growing up. Growing up ain't that easy. Life just keeps on throwing me issues to deal with, one after another. I find myself at breaking points several times and try to find the light at the end of the tunnel to provide an escape. There were many things that I couldn't bring myself to confront because life wasn't just about rainbows and butterflies but compromise that moves me along.

Were there any regrets? Yes, there were a couple but it's all about moving along. I could now find the courage to do things I wouldn't have done before. I saw the world in different perspectives. I realised that some people try to portray themselves in a negative light initially and when you start to built up that friendship with them you actually see that they are very humble, honest and beautiful people whom I'm glad are my friends. I understood why people rather see people in a negative light first because the expectations are lower and when you start knowing the person on another deeper level, you start to see more beauty in it. Instead of seeing someone in a positive light and later finding hard to comprehend that the person isn't how you thought he/she would be, leaving you disappointed. But then again, it's still a hard thing for me to do. I find it more comforting to see people in a good light first. Maybe I've been disappointed along the way but I came to accept that everyone including me is imperfect.

When the wheels of the aeroplane hit the ground of Changi Airport and time progressed to the part where I reunited with my family, I was almost moved to tears while hugging my parents and sister. It was like a rush of love and warmth feeling from them and I guess that's why I missed home so much. Having my first Bar Chor Mee, after touch down, with my family was the happiest day of my life. I could not ask for more.

Once again, I can't wait for what's in store for me this summer- internships and loads of catching up with friends and family. My life is so blessed. Thank you God :)

all my bags are packed i'm ready to go!!

Portugal was FUN-tastic!! These few days have been pretty exhausting in a fun way. I managed to get some furniture shopping done, moved into my new apartment, assembled some furniture and slept on my queen size bed last night. WOHOO :) I'm glad that I've an awesome roommate, jamie, and we are gonna rock whipping up good dishes to eat for each meal.


MOST OF ALL, I MISS DANCING!! HELYEAH.PERIOD
I was looking through some photos and I just missed the days of NJWD- all the training and practices. I miss my ip dancers, miss my dance seniors, miss my choreographers...miss everything. If i could rewind back those memories, I would just want to dance all over again with the people whom I miss dancing with.




walking down memory lane...

Belief is some thing so intricate and incomprehensible, that it tweaks a feeling in every single one of us. It keeps the world spinning. Well, because everyone believes. It's comforting when there is someone there to tell you everything will be fine and new things will come your way. That is what that keeps me going on. Rigidity stifles the creativity in the hearts of Man, causing their hearts to hardened and turning something so beautiful to something so cynical. Pessimism shouldn't be something that exist in our minds, but we should try turning them to positivism. Everyone has the power to turn their mourning into dancing.

I'm proud to say i'm a firm believer in certain things in life, not all, but I'm still trying.

<3 this song :)





I can just taste freedom SOON

whatever it is,let it be.

I can't wait to get over and done with exams. I just want to keep back in touch with music, to fall in love with it over and over again. That is something I have been missing out on.

I just had the sudden urge to blog. My life now is just centered upon exams. Being in the midst of it, just reminded myself of the times studying for A'levels, but not so much about slogging my guts out. On friday, I sat for my first Tort paper and I think it's the power of Jazlyn's prayer and the holy spirit that really gave me so much of the inner peace that I needed. So I guess that paper turned out alright :)

I need to get on the ball and start mugging for Public Law!! I haven't started much and I'm pretty nervous about it. It's fun reading cases of Judicial Review but thinking of how to apply them to exam questions, it's a whole different dimension.

I just had a random thought about why we face criticisms in some point of our lives. Sadly, the ugly truth is people are insecure and imperfect. They criticise to make themselves feel better but yet at the same time they are dealing with their own insecurities. Maybe if people start dealing with their own insecurities and hold their tongue, then maybe the world would be a more understanding and accepting place to live in. I guess those that you hold dear and close to are the ones that accept your imperfections and the ones that you will keep for life.

Bottom line is, everyone needs to learn how to DEAL


"I got the whole moon, in my hands! WOHOO"